will always be my beloved greatgrandmother. she was 64years old when i just came into this world.
and for your info.., i'm the only child in the family that time. so, most of their love n care focused on me aloneshe took good care on me. wherever i am..she'll be there. she brought me to everywhere she goes and that makes me the most special children in the family now. because NO one in the house were treated in this way till today except me. i always being reminded by everyone that when i was in kindergarden.., she seats outside the tadika and waited me frm 8am to 11.30am everyday & it went on for 6months continuously because i cried whenever she's not by myside. now i realized i'd been torturing my loves one..i'm sorry greatgrandmai hate myself. tears dripped on my cheeks whenever i think of it.
oshe's my world and i'm always happy with her. on NOV2000 when i was in standard4...,.., she was admitted to HUKM because of stroke. she couldnt speaks well.she couldnt move. when she was lying on da hosp bed , she did not say anythin except for repeating my name again n again when she did not see me.. then they brought me 2 visit her. all i did was just crying beside her and hug her. 2days before HARI ANUGERAH CEMERLANG.., when i was sleeping at 4am ..,i heard noises in the house.. everyone were so busy and i heard mom's voice talkin on phone saying that "grandma passed away in da hosp"i woke frm bed..and screamed loudly.!!i cursed . i cursed on everything..and cried nonstop. i wasn't there with her during her last breath. i did not accompany her in the last seconds of her life. i hate myself even more. everyone tried to calm me because they know I'll be the most sad among all.., grandpa hugged me tightly..,dad calmed me but they just couldnt do anythin to stop me from crying ..i kept quiet for days til she's buried. auntie and uncle kept talking to me in the car but all i did was cry & ignored them. Things get better when i dreamt bout her ..she's much more happier . she's no longer sick.. =).i get to dream bout her much more than everyone did and they say it must because she still haven't let down me she's the one and only i will love for my entire life. if there's 2nd .3rd .4th and so on life.., i wish to be with her again. she's my precious one. & she mean everything to me.
8years passes.. 8yearswithout you weren't that great & happy. you did not give up on me..you did not complain a word when i'm naughty. you supported me in everything i did... i know every decision i am making now will be supported by you. the house is not as happy as the past 8years anymore. the laughters u brought & the love you shared can never be felt in the house again. i love you.. as long as i'm alive..as long as i'm still breathing.., you'll never be forgotten.you remain in me as ONE.i love you greatgrandma.
Miisz anT♥
Joanne Chew
- 22 in June'12
- Proud mimi(owner) of my beloved princess Tiffie
- Deeply in Love with the Love of my Life,JosiahLim
she took good care on me.
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she's my world and i'm always happy with her.
8years passes..
